Imagine learning you will lose all your memories except one. What would that one be? If someone asked me that question, I will probably give the same answer that everyone has given. This remembrance would be the one that makes me remember why I am still alive – what I am living for. This memory of mine resembles all of my memories with the ones who I have bonded deeply with. It would even make me return from deathbed.
It is something that happened recently and made me realize there is people who care about me besides from my family. The realization of being loved and understood by a person other than my family makes my heart flutter. It may sound silly but I hope you will understand me once you hear it from my perspective.
It has always been difficult for me to make friends since I was a child. That’s why I try to use every opportunity I get to make friends. Unfortunately, I couldn’t find any until I met him. He didn’t live in Ankara, so we had a long-distance friendship for a long time. I was full of joy when I heard that he was coming to the city I lived in for the weekend. We both saw it as an opportunity to spend some time together. We arranged a meeting.
I was so nervous. That’s why I started stuttering the moment I saw him. It was very awkward. It took an hour to calm me down. Then, we went to a nice park where we sat and talked for hours. He understood me and I understood him. We had a mutual relationship. After talking for hours which felt like minutes, we went to a movie. Correction, we barely made it to a movie. We didn’t realize how fast time passed because we were engrossed in conversation. Missing the movie wasn’t a big deal for him but I am not very fond of missing a movie. I grabbed his hand and ran like there was no tomorrow. It was very embarrassing but he didn’t complain. He just laughed at me.
After the movie, I needed to head back home. Luckily, his hotel was near my home. We got on a bus. I was so tired that I accidently dozed off. He woke me up and even accompanied to my house which was very nice of him. This made me feel that I was likeable and capable of making friends.