If you had told me 3 years ago, that not only would I be happy with my life, but also happy with the friends I have and have a healthy relationship with my family, I would have simply dismissed you by saying that it’s impossible. However, if you had told me that my life would have gotten even more miserable, I would’ve believed you without a single thought. Oh how wrong that is…
I’m happy. For a while, I already have been happy. Happiness, the thing that seemed like such an impossible thing, has been present in my life and I could not have been more grateful for it. I love each and every one of my friends, dear me from three years ago. You were not the problem, trust me, they were. The problem in those friendships was how the other people were narcissistic and how they weren’t people to be trusted. And please, to anyone out there, try to do better with your family. Mom got a lot better too. She started taking these courses on wellbeing and mental health and life coaching, and she has been the best mom possible ever since. My dad has also been a lot better at communicating but he’s still very busy. I’ve been going to both a psychologist and a psychiatrist, both of them are going quite well. And I have to say, changing between medications is hard. Like, very hard. But the good thing about it is that with the meds I’ve been doing a lot better both in school and in my social life.
You know how I said I have amazing friends right now, let me tell you a little bit about them. First, we have Ege who has been by my side through Hell and back. And I have to say, I couldn’t have been more grateful for having such a wonderful person in my life. He always listens, gives good advice, and is incredibly fun with an amazing sense of humor. Not only that but you know how Mom and Dad didn’t approve of my friends for a long while, well that definitely changed with him. Dad likes him so much that he invites him over to talk physics for some reason. And of course, we cannot forget Rana, the friend I always wished I had. The friendship I was always jealous of seeing both on movies and in real life, now I have that with her. We go to each other’s house quite often and it’s incredibly calming to talk to her. She does not judge without reason, and her being comforting and calming also has another side with how fun she is. She’s the type of person to have long, deep talks with. And I can promise you, those talks never get boring at all.
But yes, if you had told me that I would have the life I had dreamed of for so long, I quite simply wouldn’t have believed you. But now that I’ve seen that it is actually possible, I’ve got nothing to say except for a thank you to myself, the universe, my family and my friends. Thank you all for being present in my life and causing me so much happiness.