I love you. Yes, I love you. It’s hard to say but I really love you. I want all my particles to touch you, I want to be with you until time stops. As one Turkish guy said, “Even your existence is a compliment to god.”. You are my love, my life, my peace, my happiness, my excitement, and my serotonin. In the other words, you are my everything. You study a lot so you need caffeine. Therefore I feel like I am a coffee bean but I may at any time be your lover.
When I decided to clear up everything and open a brand-new page, life sent you to me and everything started on that day. I was not ready for someone to be my whole life on that day but you were sparkling in the whole crowd and therefore I noticed you -thank god-. You were too beautiful to be true and still you are. Then you came and said hi from nowhere, I didn’t know that a regular hi could make me the happiest person. We sat somewhere and we talked as if we had known each other for years. While you were talking I realized that your eyes are more precious than a thousand paintings, more beautiful than violets and more meaningful than sunsets. After a while, a smile which is unknown where it came from appeared on my face. Afterwards, you said that I look adorable when I smile with your peaceful voice. I was thinking that how can a person be that much perfect, this is not even a word but you were “perfectest”. Later on, you wanted my number and you were contacting me every day and asking how am I but you were not giving up with it and always finding some topic to talk about, you even try to talk politics with me. I still remember the day you came to my house with cake ingredients because I said “I don’t feel so good.” and we both learned that you cook awful. However, this fact can’t change the fact you look good with an apron. Time passed and we got closer, then you asked “the” question on February 17, 2022, but at that time I had fears about being in a relationship, therefore I said that I didn’t feel ready and you accepted me with warmth and said “It’s okay çillim, I can wait until you feel ready. Please don’t feel any pressure about this.”, shortly you were killing me with kindness. Your behaviour didn’t change even a little bit. 13 days passed and in those 13 days I realized that you are the one for me, so we took a step on March 3, 2022, and that was the only decision which I never had a regret.
It has been 13 months today and I still love you as the first day and I am really thankful to have you. I can feel your love even though when you are just looking at me. I want to fill my life with our memories.
April 3, 2023
-Çillin