After 30 years of trying to find a reason to smile in life,failing, trying to smile at life, but never the life I lived smiled at me back, I decided to devote myself to science. I didn’t leave my house for years, as if I could somehow bring back my wasted years…
It seemed like a day I would spend immersed in my work, consoling myself that maybe I could achieve something. I’ve been trying to find a way to manipulate time for years. This job was my only purpose in life, so I worked day and night without stopping. I was failing at every attempt and felt like I had to console myself more and more. My hopes started to fade away, and soon,before I knew it, my hopes, that maybe I could achieve my only goal in life, maybe I could relive the years I wasted in my life, maybe I wouldn’t have to spend my whole life in the darkness of this room, was gone. I realized that if I couldn’t find a way to make it happen, I would descend into madness. The realization hit, and I thought to myself, why not work harder?
Work harder it was. I worked on this harder than ever before, as if my life depended on it, and in some ways, it did. With every attempt I was getting closer and closer, my hopes started to shine again, and it happened. I managed to travel back in time.
My hard work, had finally paid off. My hopes, dreams of reliving my wasted years of life, had finally become real. For the first time in my 45 years on this piece of land, life smiled back at me. As I stepped closer to the time machine, I felt that I finally had achieved happiness. So, as to make my dreams of reliving my years come true, I travelled back in time to my younger self. I felt like this was not real, but it was. I looked around. I looked at my self. I was 15 years old. I was about to start the second year of high school, and with my 15 year old body, and my 45 year old brain, I decided I was going to relive my second year in high school. This time, I wasn’t going to make the same mistakes. I was going to do it right this time. As I was waking up, I felt what it was like to be young again. It was the first day of my second year in high school. I went to school, as any normal person would, and I got there and started to talk to my friends. I remembered what it was like to have somebody to talk to. As the day went on, I noticed how much effort the teachers put in to teach us something. I started to appreciate them. As days went by, soon days turned into weeks, and those weeks into months. I was going to finish high school. But I wasn’t going to finish high school with regrets. As my dream came true, I decided to go back. Back to the present. I held a diary, and wrote on it everyday. When I was coming back, I brought it with me. As I was going back to the present, I said to myself, “What now?”. I had achieved my dreams, but i never thought after it because i thought that I would never achieve it. Came with the question an emptiness. Back to the present. Meaningless, purposeless I was. I realized that I had to set another goal, another purpose to achieve. With that, I wanted to live through eternity. With my new goal, I sat down at my table, and working began…