Damaged Hopes

She was walking around in her little room. The walls were moldy and gloomy. She put her hands to her hair and ruffled.Then she trembled in place with a sudden voice. “Hey Beatrice, how is your day going?” he said with an irritating voice. Even though she couldn’t see him, she knew who she was talking to. He was her boss. “I am fine, thanks to you” said Beatrice without hesitating. But her aching stomach was just like a volcano waiting impatient.

The boss got closer suddenly and whispered as he was an snake who hunts his prey. “you know, you can’t mess this job too…or ı will throw you away this time! People come here to escape their miserable lives. You can’t make any excuses saying that you are sick.” Snake scracht his face while spitting his words to her. He opened the door. And he grabbed her arm and pulled towards himself. She was quiet as always but under that calm face she was panicking and can’t breathe properly. He began to walk.

As Beatrice was walking she heard her own name. It was as if a large crowd were shouting her name. She gulp down and prepare herself for what was coming. Afterwards all she felt was a hand pushing her to a familliar stage. People stopped shouting and watch her every move closely. She started to do some moves and tricks just like a cirque animal. While she was performing she saw a man, looking at her with such hate. She scared but continued what she doing. However she couldn’t help but think about that man. “if he is not amused then why is he here?” she thought. As she was thinking about him her foot slipped and her body fell on to the ground. People started to whisper, she couldn’t move for a moment. The whispers turned into shouts. Suddenly she felt a hand grabbing her arm. Some people who worked there pulled her to the behind of the stage and  took her to the same moldy room.

As she heard a sound  she knew it was her boss who were shouting. While he was getting closer to her room. She covered her ears. “Didn’t ı told you that if you ruin this performans too , ı will throw you away! Do you think ı am bloody joking?” She shook her head from side to side as if she didn’t want to believe what he said. ” Get out of here!” he shouted her again. “You were my only chance, my only way to make money. And look at you now, are you not grateful that you are here!” she get up ” No please don’t throw me away, ı have no place to live except here! Here, ı have a place to eat and sleep, thanks to you boss! Thanks to you!” after she said that, he calmed down. “One more time, and you are out of here!” he was totally satistified about what the girl said. Then he left calmly. Beatrice smiled for a moment. She knew that every time she begged her boss and told him that she needed him, the man felt good. She muttered to herself” I am just like a coffe bean, ı may at anytime change the atmosphere and color the environment to my color.” the man was pathetic, just to feed his ego he was using her. Of course, the girl was aware of this and she was turning these feelings of her boss to her own advantage. It was the only reason she was still alive. She knew that she was a great actor.

She had been living here for more than two weeks in this sickly place. She was kicked out of her home in the city. She had neither a place to stay nor money to eat. Later she saw this place while wandering the streets and once she entered inside this place, she could not get out again. She then started work here because she had no choice but to survive. No matter how bad the conditions were, she had to be alive. Here, her room was officially like a prison, a cage. Like a circus animal, she was on stage every day and entertaining people. That was her job. As scary as it was at first, she was getting used to it now. She was planning to flee, when she found enough money but she had no idea how long it would take or if she would still be alive. She could at least try. So she was trying not to show her actual purpose and to be nice to her boss. And she could tell that her plan was prosessing quite good. Until that day… She was sold to the man she had seen while performing. The man who watched her with angry eyes and made her fall. That was the day when her hopes were crushed and the bricks she had barely planted were destroyed. Just when she thought she was going to escape from a cage, she was once again trapped, and put in a box this time.

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