Hundreds of thousands of cities, my favorite one is missing. When we think about cities Paris, Istanbul, Tokyo, etc. come to mind. But when I think about myself and a town, I immediately think of Ankara. I feel we would be good friends, not because I live here. We have similarities with this city. If Ankara was able to speak its mind, I would run right away and never look at her face.
Ankara would be a dark and brutally honest person. She would definitely be a girl and she would be a cold one as well. But somehow if we end up as friends, one of us would kill the other one and then kill herself. Not like attacking the other one but I am sure we would drag each other to suicide. Well, Ankara would not have a mother or a father not like an orphan but I think she would hate them. Ankara would not be an emotion, she would be that empty feeling in a state of life when you just can not feel anything. Maybe she would be depressed or have anorexia. She would always have a cigarette in her mouth, When I ask her why she would reply: “You are gonna die anyways, it makes my head funny and I like it more than I like my life.”. She would be feeling a little pain when she was smoking, not physical pain though. Every time she lights up her cigarette she would think about her mother and her heart would stop beating for a second. Even though she hated her mother she would know her mother will kill her if she finds out. She would laugh at that.
She had dreams once maybe, but now she just feels like nothing. She would love to have deep conversations. Most of the time she would stare at the ceiling but the second she starts to talk about her opinions, you would just stop talking and listen to her. “Don’t you find it funny too? Whenever you try to kill yourself by drowning or choking you will find yourself in a position where you are trying to survive no matter how much you want to die. I am not going to kill myself, I love my life!” then she would start laughing sarcastically.
I would not want to be her friend and I do not think she would want to be mine. 