Woke up. The same emptyness as every morning. I thought, great just another day. Just another boring house that was as big as it was empty.
I wasn’t excited about waking up though. It was just a school day (homeschool of course i’ll get into that in a moment) plus, it was christmas. Most people seem to be in such a good mood during this season while i’m stuck with no friends and no parents around. And thats the reason i hate holidays the most.
My parents are alive, but it doesnt feel that way. Theyre always busy with something. They always had and i quote, “important bussiness to attend to”. And ı have asked tyhem so many times but they were always so tense and with no exceptions put me off. So eventually, i stopped.
By the way, my parents are filthy rich. A richness most people cant even imagine of. The old money type of course. Thats because its not possible to have this kind of money within one life time. Elon musk feels like a joke beside them. I don’t even kno9w if im going to be allowed to post this. The world is not even aware about how rich some people are.
And so as a result, I dont go to a regular school and am being home schooled right now. Not about the regular and basic topics as imagined. But about how to rule the world. Because thats what my family does. About economy and the stock market. And sometimes even theres topics i can chose myself such as music and visual arts. I love to paint and play the guitar. Theyr’e the one thing that gets my mind off of the real world. I dont even know what would i do if there was no music. Anyways, my parents are not that bad i guess.
That lead me to having basically no social life or friends. Even though i like being in my own company, it sometimes hurts. It hurst so much that i question if it would be better to end it all. Maybe i should just just end my suffering. Maybe its better not to be than not having a life.
That was it. That was the way to finally peace and quiet. That was the way to getting rid of my 18 years worth of pain. I even planned the time. New years was perfect. They were never forgetting what abandoning did to a child.
-30.12-
Its the day before new years. Woke up. My parents werent back from their “work trip”.
-31.12-
Its new years eve. Of course they’re not here
-31.12, around 11pm-
Got up to the rooftop. It’s so high that i can even see the buildings at the side of our property(normally its not possible since the garden is that big)
Listened to the wind. Tried to find a meaning in it’s melody and warmness.
Got a little closer to the edge andd just stood there for a minute.
This was it.
Said my goodbyes to muttering to myself since there was so little. Maybe to my dog maya shes the only living being that cared about me afterall.
I left myself in the mercy of the breeze.
Finally, the peace i yearned for.
There was a few seconds left to the new year,
until i saw my parents running to me, in slow motion.
I chuckled while falling to my death, How ironic.