A SPECIAL BOND

I have been successful in my life so far. I’m a good athlete, I get good grades, I have good communication skills, and overall I’m the kind of person everyone likes, there’s nothing I can’t achieve. Although I have many friends, there is one person who is very special to me. I don’t really know him, and it feels impossible to feel a connection with someone I don’t know. I’ve been trying to be friends with him for 16 months, I’ve been trying everything but nothing works. I don’t really know what to call it, I don’t know if it’s love or some strange feeling that I can’t name. He makes me the happiest person in the world while I am the unhappiest. He shows me what my heart is worth but breaks it. I know all this means nothing to him, but still, this bond is so precious that I don’t want to let it go, because ı know if I let him go, a part of me will miss  him. Without even talking to him once, I felt something so precious that I never want to let go. They always told me that love makes you feel like you have butterflies inside, I thought that was wrong but I understand. And I guess we can call it love now. I’ve never felt like this before, my heart beats so fast that I usually blush when I go near him. I don’t know how to let these feelings down because it feels impossible now. I wish he could read these things, and understands how much he really means to me…