Everything was ready except me. I was confused and questioning my decisions. Was it to early? What am I going to do after this? Is he the one? Can I manage this whole being a wife thing? What if he wants child, or worse children? Am I mature enought to take care of myself? What if he is a psycopath?
Guests was already downstairs and I was still in my bathrobe. I looked in through the window, the whole family was sitting around the gigantic wedding table, eating and talking. All of a sudden I started to thing that it was a bad decision. I was not ready to get married with a man that I just known for eigth months. What was I thinking when I said “YES!” to his proposal? I know that I love him so much and the proposal was to good to be real but right now it does not feel like I should be doing this. I do not want to hurt his or his’ familiy’s feeling. Also my parents were really exited about this whole wedding situation because I am their only child who was not married yet. Even the people who help this entire decoration matters to me. I do not want to dissapoint any of them. So I was not thinking clearly while escaping from my own wedding and my future husband. I was just thinking not to get caught.
Nobody saw me because I used the back door. Our house was on the countryside so there were empthy fields more than anything. I ran as far as I can until my lungs no longer accept the air. I was not sure why I was running since nobody was following me however my mind was clearer with every step. I was not wearing something proper so my only choice was staying in these fields. I found a bench under an apple tree. I was exhausted but hushed in someway.
I sat on that bench until the sunset. I can still saw the lights of my house. In our tradition the bride was the first star of the night. So until the night comes nobody alloe to see the bride. That means I still have time to get back to the house and prepare myself for my wedding but menthally I was not ready yet.
I was in my dreamland when I felt the cold fingers on my shoulder and after that something warm wraped me. When I looked over my shoulder I almost fell from the bench. I was not expecting to see my fiance. In his eyes I saw something that I also have in my eyes…